I wish I could help everyone in their worlds. Make all their problems go away, but I can’t. I guess everything has a moral or lesson, and only the individual facing the problems can learn that lesson. It’s always nice to try though.

I know this guy, he’s really smart, even did some college time. But he feels like he’s stuck in the system, as an ex-con and on welfare. He has so much potential to be something…special I guess, but it seems like he’s comfortable in his situation despite his complaints. I feel bad, because I always do, and I want to help him. But it just seems to me like he’s not as stuck as he says he is. There’s always a way although nothing is instant. ( I’m still learning that the hard way)

I can give motivational speeches, even help him find a job ( even though I can’t get one), but it looks to me like no matter what, he always ends up on that corner looking for the easy way out. He says he’s thankful for having someone like me in his life, and he appreciates everything I’ve tried to do for him. I find it hard to believe, because time after time, he goes right back to where he hates being. I guess that government money isn’t that bad after all.

I feel like it’s my fault somehow, like I haven’t pushed him enough to do better for himself. But I guess you really can’t help someone who doesn’t want to help themselves…