You can desire one's loyalty

...but you can't demand it.



That has got to be this months lesson for the world. Everyone has got their trust issues...I've got my friendship issues...no one understands me. People feel me, rarely do i have a loyal soul at my side willing to battle with me. Mostly, i get the superficial 'party with u' friends, or the 'i need you to be there for me but dont expect it from me' people. I've accepted these folks for who they are, it's like finally giving Bush the space to be himself. I personally feel lonely and disgusted at how many people are willing to sit here and tell me i'm being a terrible friend because i'm tryna get my life together. No support, just insults and arguments. But when he broke your heart for the third time, I was there. When she got pregnant with the next dude, i was there. And when you didn't get into your top 3 choices, i was there, filling out more applications with you.



Now that i need that support, all i have is "get over yourself" and "Wanna fuck tonite?". I just want to thank ya'll for showing me your true selves. God forbid anyone else attempt to get into the Best friend pool...Dane's got it on lock and his ass ain't even in NY. And i'm the fucked up friend, cuz i've been depressed, confused,and struggling like crazy, Because i'd rather help my mom at work then chill in ya crib smoking and drinking talking about inane subjects.



I guess this is what life's about. Living and Learning, pain and joy. All i know is when i'm happy...ya'll won't hear it from me. Unless u reading this blog on the regular.



Thanks Daney...Like always, you rock my world baby.