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Life is way harder in this country than people realize. If you don't have the right paperwork, you will sweat, bleed, cry, stand on your feet for hours, and even when you think you found a good gig, you will notice the subtle attempts at being taken advantage of. You will soon realize the bullshit you will put up with just to ensure that money makes it to your account at the end of the week. You will tolerate it from people whom you are smarter than, more experienced and cultured than, and you will hate it.






I ain't no bird, despite what people think. I've been educated in many a countries including this one. I have parents whose sole purpose in life is to portray the perfect family. I know how important image is. I also know how much I could give two shits what someone thinks about me.






I know that whatever face you put out there in the world, someone will respond. I know if I look ridiculously hood, idiot wanna-be gangstas will holla. I know if I'm on my prep status, pretentious horny dickheads will holla. So i choose to just be me. I'm tomboy tima. Sweats and a hoodie, the occasional jeans here and there, and a fresh pair of Converse All-stars if nothing else. Don't get it twisted, I know how to dress when it's neccesary. But I don't judge anyone for how they look. I won't sit here and say "geez, he must be smart and rich, why with his Polo shirt and all."






My boss had the nerve to tell me to get a new wardrobe with the money she " gives" me. " You will attract all sorts of bums, ya hear?" Mind you, the time she is saying this, I've already changed into my house clothes from my street clothes so that I may be able to fufill my duties to her son and her home. Jeans and a Polo shirt is what I need according to her.






" Oh yea?" I said nothing else. I know she's trying to "help" me. But umm, I'm not in an office, I'm in the house, and I'm taking care of a kid who thinks playing video games all day is considered reading, critical thinking, and productive.






I've learn to put my pride to the side. I happen to think my sense of fashion is simple, quirky, and just comfy. I don't care to have an 'allll name brand down to my undies' outfit on. I like the Gap, I like Old navy shirts, and I like anything that says something funny on it. I like my converse, my Adidas, my nikes. I don't, however like being judged.